Choosing with a Heavy Heart

The past few weeks have not only been difficult, but somewhat uninspired. I don’t want this to take away from those moments of inspiration that broke me out of the pain though, if only for a quiet moment of personal reflection or a dream. I am writing this entry with no particular theme in mind, because when I wracked my brain I couldn’t come up with one that was focused enough. I just wanted to address the fact that I am in one of those particular times when it becomes extremely difficult to choose love instead.

In the wake of loss, and during the desperate kind of an hour I find myself in, struggling to make the greatest effort towards my goals in heavy weariness, I have only come to realize how important choosing love is to the richness of my life and, in turn, the lives of those around me. We can let no trial discourage us to the point of no return, because, if we do, we cannot awaken to the call within each and every one of us, or improve the state of a broken world. I can become especially disheartened when I witness more judgements being passed than I see understanding being practiced, more acts of greed and betrayal than kindness and generosity, but I have no choice but to fight for that dream of a world who comes together as one. That’s just the core of who I am, and I’m done trying to accept defeat. I’m a stubborn advocate for a greater truth.

I know that this entry isn’t detailed, and if you walk away a little confused, I understand. What I hope is that it serves as a reminder to myself and my readers that heavy hearts are not forever. For every time we can find an opportunity to share a thought, send a prayer or a well wish to someone, we are making a difference that will surely make our hearts a little lighter. And yes, even in those simple acts and positive feelings, not only are you choosing love, you are choosing love instead of dwelling in the pain, and spreading so much more light into the universe. So, don’t be afraid. You are never alone for one moment, and there is so much more left in store for that heavy heart of yours.